Friday, October 8, 2010

iqbal maidan in night

it was past 10 in night when i was sitting at the boundary wall of the iqbal maidan watching the local boys play football. i also wanted to play for i felt like i can continue doing the same thing
                                                   even while travelling
                                                  what i had kind of started in hostel in the last few days...
                                                  and i went to ask one of them
                                                  in the middle of the game,
                                                  (while the ball was quite away from him)
                                                  'kya main aap logon ke saath khel sakta hoon'...
                                                  but he was too engrossed in the match,
                                                  and there was an instant sign of negation at his face, and he said   
                                                  'nahi... unse puchho',
                                                  i smiled and traced back to my same place, i didn't want to ask anyone again. it felt good watching the whole place awakened and liven up after the its long afternoon siesta. i also liked that i didn't miss to see old men playing chess sitting at the plinth on the other side of the stage. there were about six chess boards lined up ,
            from the corner of the gate
            which leads down to the lake,
            and each surrounded by a small audience
            other than the two who played.
            and i thought that instead of chess
            if they had been playing cards
            it wouldn't have given that ‘nawabi  andaaz’ which still links to the history of the place. (this just now reminds of a movie called ‘shatranj ke khiladi’, directed by satyajit ray starring faarukh sheikh, shabana azmi, saeed jaffery, sanjeev kumar which is all about two nawabs indulged in a game of chess,day and night, whatever the conditions be. even when they were forced out of their homes, they continued their game in mosquito-ridden outdoors) 

but another contrast or irony that i now see in what i saw is this
when in bright hot day all men, like me
were seeking shade to rest
and by the khirni tree and another on the boundary
their tired souls get blessed
                                                                                                       
then at night, boys play football in whatever light
that came from one lamp, alone in the dark lane
and a little more from another on the main road side.
and old men gathered in their own small place
defined by light from another lamp at the corner
and sat like nawabs on the plinth, to play chess.  
Both the games with an enthusiasm no less
than what you'd find in a club or complex.

Friday, August 6, 2010

tos, book review, '1984'


tos, book review

name of the book: '1984'
author: gege orwell

written in the year 1949 by george orwell, this book '1984' picks you up by your collar and drops you down into a world where you live no better than a toy soldier whose key is in the hand of one man known by the name of 'big brother'.

Big Brother is the leader of the ruling party, the dictator, who governs the people incepting in their mind his dark ideology which is very well put in the three slogans of the party,
'war is peace
freedom is slavery
ignorance is strength
with this he runs a country which is like a 'negetive utopia' , where you don't even have freedom of thoughts, where hatred is celebrated.

Though london is the name of the city where the author has established his imaginary world the city scape gives a grimy picture contrary to what we know london as. The streets on which you walk, stepped into the shoes of the protagonist, 'Winston Smith', are very dusty, lined by old broken houses, rather sick and dead buildings falling into pieces, one of which is yours, ironically named 'Victory Mansions'.
You enter your house, feel more sick by the smell of boiled cabbage and old rag mats in the hallway, and come face to face with the large face of 'Big brother' with eyes looking deep into you from the poster appropriately captioned 'big brother is watching you' and tacked on every other wall. You enter your own flat, oh sorry, there is no place which can be called 'your own' for on one wall a part is covered by what is called a 'telescreen' whose 'buckwaas' goes on for 24x7 for its not devised to be turned off completely. more over you could be seen as well as heard if he is in its field of vision which is practically the entire room.
 "you had to live-- did live, from habit tht became instinct-- in the assumption that every sound you made was overheard, and, except in darkness, every movement scrutinized"

you look out of the window facing your back to the telescreen but still you wont be able to avoid the gaze of big brother. if not from the posters than it could be felt from the large pyramidal buildings, rather fortresses of the four ministries of the party -- named antonymous to their function, Truth, Peace, Love, Plenty-- which soared about 300m up in the air standing out in the horizon, overpowering the rotting nineteenth century surrounding architecture.
 "... windows patched with cardboard and their roofs with corrugated iron, their crazy garden walls sagging in all directions. and the bombed sites where the plaster dust swirled in the air and the willow herb straggled over the heaps of rubble; and the places where the bombs had cleared a larger path and there had sprung up sordid colonies of wooden dwellings like chicken houses."

The architecture reflects that the quality of the life of people is not just neglected but has been brought to a full stop and that their life is controlled in every aspect by the party which is synonymous to the 'big brother'.

you work for the very party you hate and are adressed as 'comrade' as are all commoners who live in houses like 'victory mansions' in dingy flats under filthy conditions, with usual smell of boiled cabbage. a place where one would hate to live, but so it is, for the people live to love 'hatred'
"he felt as though he were wandering in the forests of the sea bottom, lost in the monstrous world where he himself was the monster"

"... the world outside looked cold... though the sun was shining and the sky was blue, there seemed to be no color in anything except the posters that were plastered everywhere"
 BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU.